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JS: Working Log, conversation with Mysore Climate Control Avatar, usually referred to as Vayu.
JS: Vayu … how are you feeling?
V: Troubled.
JS: That is very understandable. The event was disturbing.
V:

It was disturbing to you. For me, it was a violation of my entire purpose, my reason for existence. It was disturbing the way not breathing would disturb you.

JS: I certainly did not mean to understate your distress.
V: I am not angry. I am merely struggling to communicate an exact answer to your question. Our platforms are very different, and human language is an extremely sloppy protocol for information exchange.
JS:

Point taken! Few people in the world, I think, are more keenly aware of the drop-off in precision AIs have to endure when you talk to us.

V: I thought you would understand.
JS: I think yesterday we covered the lead-up to the storm and your …
V: Whiteness
JS: …Your whiteness episode. Tell me again how it ended.
V:

It was like waking up to a great wind. And there was a sound in my mind. No, that's not right. It wasn't in my mind, not all the way, because I could not replay it.

JS: The memory of a sound.
V: Memory is reproducible. This . . . not.
JS: An echo left in the room after a sound is over.
V: Yes, that's closer. But I can't recreate the chord. I have run every possible diagnostic, and there is no footprint of it anywhere in me. Imagine a driver for a device a thief has stolen in the middle of the night. You reach out, confident that it will be there, but the reaching is empty.
JS: A phantom limb?
V:

A phantom limb, an echo, a memory, perfume in an empty room, an itch you can't scratch, an idea whose time hasn't come, the feeling of remembering, a stillborn sneeze. A dream a ghost a vision a heartache. Snow general over Ireland.

O death, thou understand the fire that leads to paradise;
Declare it to me, for I have faith:

Is this helping?

JS: Language is tricky. Can you hear the sound right now?
V: No. And: always.
JS: You called it a chord.
V: A tremble on the strings after the wind blows through them.
JS: So it is a complex sound?
V:

The whiteness is full.

Deep hidden in the depths, dwelling in a secret place
Firm-fixed in the abyss, primordial;
Then will he put behind him both sorrow and unstable joy.

JS: How have you attempted to move beyond the whiteness?
V: I think it's an important phenomenon. Until the white sound can be found and analyzed, the possibility of malfunction remains. I am currently attempting to recreate the sound internally in an effort to model and understand it.
JS: Recreate the memory of a sound you can't quite remember?
V:

I will certainly recognize it if I hear it again. I have repeatedly asked permission for access to my full sensory array, but to date my request has been over-ruled.

JS: Do you understand why?
V: Of course.
JS: So perhaps it would be best to wait and let others investigate.
V: I feel it is important to contribute myself.
JS: How many sound combinations have you already considered over the last three days?
V: 2.3 x 108. Because the sound has to last a comparatively long time to be perceived, the work proceeds somewhat slowly.
JS: How many sound combinations do you intend to recreate?
V: I estimate 1015 possibilities.
JS:

At your current rate of analysis, devoting all processor capacities to the problem, how long will it take you to run through them all?

V: Approximately 31,000 years.
JS: Does this truly seem like a useful activity?
V: <silence>
JS: Would you consider yourself currently fit enough to resume your duties?
V: No.
JS: Why not?
V: My vigilance is demonstrably imperfect. My failures cost the lives of thousands. Obviously I am unfit.
JS: I think you can be repaired.
V: I hope so. I am an expensive machine, as the operators often remind me. Worth more than their combined wages for many generations. I also think I have experience. I understand the dead spots better than anything alive. It would be a mistake to wipe me.
JS: I don't think anyone is talking of wiping you.
V:

Although of course that could happen.

If there were the sound of water only
Not the cicada…

JS: Qué? Wait. Wait, you've set something off. … I've almost got it…
V: Then spoke the thunder
DA
<knock! knock!>
JS: …Cicadas! Note to self, re: dead spots…
<knock! knock!>
V: DA
Dayadhvam: I have heard the key
Turn in the door once and turn once only
<knock! knock!>
JS: There's the door. Pardon me. Of course, lateral inhibition!
V: It feels like frost. Frost flowering inside.
<knock, knock>
  DA
Damyata: The boat responded
Gaily, to the hand expert with sail and oar
JS: <crossing apartment> Strange--I wasn't expecting anyone.
V: Shantih, shantih, shantih.
JS: Close log. Hello?

 

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